White Raven

Continuing from my previous post, note the following excerpt:

the one who stands out is Leon given that his first name is an addition to the recent "Leo/Cat Theme" pattern-cluster.  Note from his wiki page:

• Leon Brittan (25 September 1939 – 21 January 2015) 

And we now have a "September 25(x2)" pattern-cluster.

I should mention that Leon's date of death, January 21st is also the birthday of my daughter.  That we have two September 25 cropping up in the post is a heads up--a prompt to revisit the Deaths in 2017 site in order to locate the intended person(s) who passed away on September 25:

• Elizabeth Dawn, 77, British actress (Coronation Street, Crown Court), emphysema.
• Leonard Mashako Mamba, 65–66, Congolese politician, Minister of Public Health (1997–2001) and Minister of Higher Education and Universities (2008–2012)

Do note the first name Leonard that's another addition to the "Leo/Cat Theme" pattern-cluster.  And we have a twin 77 at age of death for Elizabeth Dawn.  Note from their wiki page:

• Leonard Mashako Mamba (March 15, 1951 – September 25, 2017)
• Sylvia Butterfield  (8 November 1939 – 25 September 2017^[1])

 As for Butterfield, her birthday is an addition to a cluster found in my previous post, hence:

• "November 8(x2), __, January 8, __, March 8,__, May 8(x4), June 8, July 8, August 8, __, __/ 8th Day, Month Sequence" pattern-cluster. 

And so to deal with Mamba's birthday.  Venturing to the March 15 wiki page... using the formula and taking into consideration the "one off" curve ball ... cutting to the chase we arrive at:

1998 – Benjamin Spock, American pediatrician and author (b. 1903)
2009 – Ron Silver, American actor, director, and producer (b. 1946)

Their surnames are meaningful.  As for Silver, he's a stretch from the formula, butt his surname is an addition to the very recent "Silver/White Theme" pattern-cluster.   Note from his wiki page:

• Ronald Arthur "Ron" Silver (July 2, 1946 – March 15, 2009) 

 Among the list of his films ... using the formula and taking into consideration the "one off" curve ball:

• The White Raven (1998)
• Bruiser (2000)
• Ratz (2000)

And the titles also stand out, butt the first is an addition to the very recent "Silver/White Theme" pattern-cluster. Note from the White Raven IMDb page:

18 December 1998 (USA)

It was released on my sisters birthday... a date that's cropped up a number of times as of late.  And note from the films wiki page:

Written by	Michael Blodgett

His name contains a cryptic "Michael blood gett"... another addition to the "Get/Gez" pattern-clusster. Note from his wiki page:

• Michael Blodgett (September 26, 1939 – November 14, 2007)  

And so today is his birthday!!  This is "timely"... a strategic influence of the inner twin world.

As for Benjamin Spock, his name contains a cryptic "Time (Ben) Spock"... which means something to me personally (as intended by the inner twin world).  Especially now that my stepson has cropped up a number of times yesterday and today.  Okay,  it's a bit of a story:

When Cathy and I got together, Gilman was quite opposed to the idea, especially at first.   Understandably so, he was an impressionable 13 year old and I was hardly the "father" figure he had hoped and longed for.  Gilman pretty much had the upper hand in regards to his relationship with his mother, which in my books, would not do.  You see, Cathy had the horrific misfortune of having an older brother "Bob" who committed suicide... and this devastated her in ways that's hard to describe.  Cathy is very soft and hates conflict... period, and so will do everything in her power to avoid it, including giving into Gilman at her great expense, ... and his too.  However she didn't see it that way-- she always felt that he could potentially harm himself (like her brother), and would do anything to prevent that from happening. 

 Now at a very young age Gillman-- 4years, he had serious issues surrounding his father's "walking out"... and shortly after started to get angry and tell his mother that he would kill himself at various times.  And THAT scared the hell out of her to the point that she more or less stepped away from proper parenting, which is about the same as giving him too much rope to hang himself (metaphor) .  And so in I come, and after a time I see the dilemma and try to encourage Cathy to not be afraid to discipline Gillman when he is so obviously stepping out of line.  I do not believe in physical punishment, believing instead that there are non violent ways to help steer a child from disaster. 

Because Cathy worked long hours, I spent more time with the three kids.  And there was a particular rule in the house that Gillman balked against at first (because it was mine and it meant change for him), however he did eventually abide.  The rule was surrounding dinner prep vs dishes: whoever helped with dinner didn't have to do dishes, and each of the kids could choose.  Gillman chose to help me with preparing the meals, leaving the other two who'd rather not, do dishes.  

As it turned out, during meal preparation, Gilman and I got along really well... we debated quite a bit, however I insisted that the conversation remain tactful and respectful, and for the most part it was, however, every now and then he would say something in such a way that I found was meant to be insulting.  For instance, one day he said that I look like Alice on the Brady Bunch.  Okay so Alice is a small part "Maid" who has little to do with the family other than cooking meals and cleaning house.  I didn't take it as a compliment needless to say.  I didn't say anything about what I was really thinking, what I replied instead was "interesting, and you look like Spock on Star Trek".  His reply, "what do you mean by that"?!  And I repeated.. "you look like Spock" (and he does btw), butt his response, to my statement suggests that he believed that there was more involved in my statement: that he looked like Spock, and so encouraging my sense that there was something else to be read in his "you look like Alice...".   Okay, so it did bother me somewhat that Cathy managed to work late every night and I was left to more or less make the meals and watch the kids. We had another rule though-- we wouldn't eat until the entire family was gathered at the table... so we'd wait for Cath.   

I had a good idea as to why Cath worked late....  what it was that she was trying to avoid. Unfortunately Gilman did not.  He felt neglected and was angry at my being there when it was his mother he needed and wanted. Now Gillman is a very smart person... even at 13, and I think that long ago he had picked up on his mothers fears and that is why he was acting out with the suicide stuff-- trying to keep her there and attentive... begging for discipline, except his behaviour was pushing her away.  Finally I talked Cath into telling him about her brother and his uncle "Bob" suiciding (he would eventually find out anyway and it would be best coming from her).   I think it helped,  because Gillman's angry episodes became less frequent... he was finally "getting it"... piecing together the truth-- that his mother loved him and was fearful... pulling away because she didn't know what else to do.   Gillman went on with his life like any normal teenager growing up.  AND, our debates, well, they can be heated at times, butt a mind like Gillman's, and mine, need it.